To know that I miss you so much when you leave; I miss you in every inch of this city, when I'm alone and lonely, or when I'm with my company, yet you nowhere to be seen. There's plenty of things I'd love you to see, in every part of the roads, sky, or trees; Upon the night sky where stars are shining, when I used to tell you to count with me. I picked my pen and write— of the moon will always remind me of you. I talk to you over and over, even you can't hear me, for me, nothing has changed; In every books, food stall, post office, classrooms, papers, songs, and movies, everything. I miss calling your name out loud, or driving around with the bikes, strolling around this awful town, ending up with some decent dishes. To hold your hands around the museum, being silly and we laugh aloud, gossipping someone we curse, or perhaps the argue. "Let's go out this weekend, are you vacant?" you may ask me, "Sorry, I have plan with my boyfriend" ...
aww bbyyyy 🥹❤️❤️❤️
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ReplyDeleteSeperti hal yang biasa kamu tanyakan padaku, Sebesar apa perasaanmu padaku? Bila cintaku padamu harus diukur, semesta tak cukup merentang luasnya
karena ia hidup, bukan hanya ada.
Sayang ini bukan rentetan janji,
bukan manis bibir yang mudah menguap, tapi akar yang diam-diam tumbuh, menjalar di setiap liku hidup. Menetap di dinginnya malam dan kejinya badai.
Bila kau ragu, genggam tanganku.
Rasakan detak yang menyebut namamu. Dan bila masih kau bertanya: “Benarkah kau sayang aku?”
Lihatlah mataku saat aku diam.
Di sanalah jawabannya. Bukan berupa kata, tapi jiwa yang menetap.